Big Kid

I got a first in my essay!! Woo so happy! Have another essay to do fairly soon, then my dissertation! :/ Scary thought.
To celebrate I went to the SU for a Star Wars vs Avengers night. I went on the side of Star Wars, didn't really dress up but painted my nails and stole Ryan's Chewbacca toy. Started off really slow, when we got there it was dead and we were the only people there. So went to the pub, had a drink with Mark then wondered back once it had picked up a bit. Turned out to be a great night, met some new people and got to nerd out :)

Went home Thursday after uni. Met up with Keri for a catch up and a nice dinner at the Met. I love seeing that girly, she always knows how to make me feel better about stuff.

Went to Portsmouth Friday, it was Jason's 21st birthday and we decided to go there as Louis lives there and they have a Playzone which does adult nights. So after a lot of alcohol we headed there. It was so much fun, I turned into a such a kid and we played tag.

It closed at 11 so when we left we went into town to a club that was having an alternative night which was great. Such good music and some pretty cool people. Heard the best mash up ever, Gangnam Style vs Pretty fly (for a white guy), it was brilliant!

After a nice Nando's lunch Saturday we headed home.

Spent the evening at home watching films with the parents, watched a film called The Skin I Live In, such a fucked up film but really clever.
Sunday I felt pretty sorry for myself. I really hate being at home, everything reminds me of Ian and it's so hard knowing he's so close. When I'm in Wycombe nothing reminds me of him and I can surround myself with people that didn't really know him. Think Christmas holidays is going to be hard. I hope things move forward and get better.
Mum treated me to a little shopping trip and brought me lots of things for Christmas and some nice food for the week which made me a bit happier. She then dropped me back in Wycombe. I have been attempting to do uni work all day but that didn't go to well.

Lots of food and the odd bit of exercise

Yesterday was the deadline for my project so the majority of last week was spent frantically trying to get work done. I treated myself to the most amazing milkshake I have every had!

Luckily all work was completed in time and I feel it went pretty well. Everyone's ideas were brilliant and it was so good seeing peoples designs and proposals.
After the presentations we had a 3 hour break before we had the introduction to our new project. So being the good students we are we went to the SU for a beer and a burger, which then turned into about 3 beers. Needless to say we all got a bit giggly by the time we had to go back to uni. When it was finished we went back to the SU, then to the pub. After picking up some pizza on the way home, the girls, Lucinda, Caz and I all slobbed out on the sofa and watched Anchorman  and Chicago, both of which were quoted along to. By the time they had finished Rebecca and I were suffering from a hangover so went to bed.

The parents brought my bike and wellies up Sunday and came round for a cuppa before we headed to The Polecat for a bit of lunch for my granddads birthday. I well and truly stuffed myself to the verge of popping. I had mackerel pate for starters, roast beef with yorkshire puds for main and an amazing white chocolate and lime cheesecake for pud, NOM!
Friday I also pigged out a bit and got probably the nicest sandwich I've had, bbq pulled pork. So good!

Taking advantage of having my wellies here and the weather being fairly nice today I went for a walk with Ryan. I realized how unfit I am whilst walking up a hill and feeling like I was going to die.

Have spent the evening eating my body weight in quavers and lilt and watching Once Upon a Time.
I'm getting my essay mark tomorrow morning, pretty excited actually, fingers crossed I did ok.

Remember Remember

The past week has been pretty eventful. Many nights out drinking and outings with friends.
The rest of Halloween was awesome. Went to Reading with Lucinda and a few of her friends, we all got dressed up and I looked suitably slutty for a night out. I had one of the best nights in a while, I love going to Reading, the places are so much better than here or Uxbridge. Many cocktails were drank and a very expensive shot and we all ended up back in Lou's bed half naked. Brilliant.

Saturday was pretty good. Had a very lazy morning/ afternoon then had a spontaneous drive to the woods with Ryan where we had a nice walk in the mud before getting stuck in the dark and making a Blare Witch esque film. We then thought it would be a great idea to head up the massive hill in West Wycombe to watch the fire works. So we got Jack and some warm food and drove up and watched the display. It was really pretty but blooming cold! We then  went to the Crash night at the SU, my liver was having a bit of a strop so I wasn't drinking much but the night was still awesome. Many awesome tunes were played and I realized Ryan's love for Robbie Williams, literally never seen him so happy!

Monday I met a couple of Ryan's friends, Jason and Cheryl and we went to the cinema to watch Silent Hill, which I must admit I jumped at quite a lot. In the evening we went to Ryan's parents house, along with Sammy, to watch some more fireworks. They were really good, all the girls huddled by the fire while the lads did the lighting. We scoffed ourselves with jacket potatoes, sausages and doughnuts, yum!

When we got back I found out Ryan had never seen The Labyrinth so I showed him the wonder that is David Bowie's bulge and Magic Dance. I ended up quoting nearly the entire film but he really liked it, which was good because otherwise we could of no longer been friends.

I spent today doing a bit of work and making myself feel I was more productive than I actually was, I'm good at that. Cakey came round in the evening and we had a bit of a movie night with bottle of wine. So overall it's been a good few days but I really need to start doing more work.

Halloween

Halloween party last weekend was amazing! It was probably the best house party I have been too. Loads of alcohol, great people and brilliant costumes. Had such a laugh. I threw up from downing a tabasco shot which was not good, Laura had set out loads of games, including shot roulette and chocolate covered apples or onions, both of which I lost :/

Yesterday was Halloween so yet again we all dressed up and attempted to go to the SU for Frat House but it was packed. Seriously never seen it that packed before. Plus it was chucking it down with rain so we all got soaked. We ended up going to the Gob and having a great time. Many jager bombs were brought to cheer me up and soggy cheesy chips on the way home.
The housemates and I had a little pumpkin carving competition.

I went to the fancy dress shop the other day, wasn't intending on getting anything as I was still intending on using my doll costume but I came across the most beautiful cat mascaraed mask. I'm in love! So I wore that yesterday and have another few Halloween outings that I intend to wear it to :)

Rest of the week has been spent doing uni work and going out with friends, just generally trying to keep myself occupied and happy. Have a week off next week, not sure what I'm going to do yet but I should really fill it with doing more uni work.

Back and Forth

I have finished my essay! So glad it's out of the way now and I can just relax. Wrote the end of it today with a massive hangover which wasn't fun. Met up with Keri yesterday for a catch up at the Met, we were then joined by Faye, Sarah and Dan. Dan and I then went to the Yarn to see some others while the rest went home. Later went to the Electric Lounge and got very drunk. I ended up crying in the middle of the club and then getting really pissed off because all of the food outlets were closed... what a state. 

Went out in Wycombe to the Lope on Wednesday with a few people. Spent the walk home chasing after Mikey bare foot as he had stolen my shoes. Ryan very kindly gave me a lift home Thursday so he met the parents and we had tea at my house.

Today is my wonderful cousins 18th birthday so this evening was spent eating cupcakes and having a good catch up with her and the family at her house. 

Have a halloween party tomorrow that I am SO excited for! Dressing up as a puppet doll, was experimenting with make up the other day. 

Cinema

I ended up going bowling Thursday evening with Ryan, Sammy and Luke. I lost on both games by a considerable amount, not surprising really, I haven't played for years and I was never that good anyways but I had a great time. The night then continued til 4am driving around the Wycombe area which was so much fun!

The weekend was pretty shit. Packed up loads of Ian's old stuff which was one of the hardest things I've had to do. I hated being back, everything reminding me of times I thought were perfect and seeing him again made me realize something I really didn't want to realize. I also had to write some of my essay which is never fun but I got quite a lot done which I'm pleased about. Will be going back home during the week to finish it as I concentrate so much better there. 

Sunday morning was spent at the hospital visiting Lee. He is doing so well and putting on a brave face considering what he's been through. It was nice to see him and Cathy again, hopefully next time it will be back at home rather than in a hospital. 

After a lovely steak dinner I headed back to Wycombe. I met up with Ryan and we went to the cinema to watch Looper. It was amazing! His impersonation f Bruce Willis was brilliant and it was a very clever story line. 

Today was again a visit to the cinema to watch Frankenweenie. It was fantastic!! So funny. So clever. So Burton. The rest of the evening has been spent being productive at uni work and watching PLL. 

Just started watching the last episode of season 2 and it froze :/ It's soooo good and I NEED to know what happens!  

Movies and Ice-Cream

The past few days have been pretty good considering the events that occurred last week. Although deep inside I feel like shit and just want to break down and cry constantly I have been keeping myself occupied and seeing my amazing friends.
Monday was spent doing uni work and the evening relaxing with more chocolate and watching British Bake Off with the housemates.
Tuesday, uni again which was pretty good. However my ideas have kind of come to a stand still at the moment as I'm not sure where to go next but I just need to concentrate and knuckle down with some practical work. I visited Beckie for a bit in the evening as she needed some cheering up too so we both had a good old rant and drank tea. After I went to the Lope to meet some friends and have a well needed drink.
Yesterday was one of the best days I've had in a while. After uni Ryan came round and we watched Serenity as he had never seen it, and as a Firefly fan he had to. He brought nibbles and cream soda so we pigged out for a bit. We then met up with Luke and Sammy at the cinema to watch Paranormal Activity 4. I was petrified to say the least. Ryan works at the cinema so he kindly got me in for free and we sat in the VIP box which was pretty cool. The film was blooming tense and I was so jumpy but Luke made it better by taking the piss out of the kids sandals and socks. After the film we all headed back to theirs for a cuppa and to dry off from the rain. Ryan and Jack then came to mine to watch Pixar films as I needed to be de-scared. Ryan brought a tub of ice-cream and we lazed out on the sofa with a blanket watching Up and Monsters Inc.
Today has just been spent watching Pretty Little Liars and going to uni for a bit. I'm heading out later but I'm not sure who's going yet so I shall continue watching PLL until I know.

Shit

The past week hasn't been the best to say the least. I don't really want to delve into details as I don't think I have fully accepted it yet. So the past week has been spent eating lots of comfort food, drinking my troubles away and realizing I have the best friends which I am so grateful for helping me through this very hard time.

I went home this weekend to sort out some things and my parents did their very best to cheer me up. We had a lovely outing to Richmond and walked along the river and had lunch at an amazing German restaurant where we stuffed our faces with beer, sausage and sauerkraut.

In the evening I met up with some friends. I was really worried about going due to recent events but I had an amazing time and realized I have nothing to worry about when it comes to loosing them :)

 Today was spent nursing my hangover and looking through my dads collection of crystals so I can use them in my latest uni project.

I am now back in Wycombe and am trying to take my mind off things by watching back to back episodes of Pretty Little Liars.
I really hope things feel better soon as everything I look at tortures me and just makes me want to break down. However painful it is, I know I've done the right thing.